HENRY'S CONSCIENCE : JAIL (Self Loathing)

shut the fuck up! Your pathetic now. People telling you your gonna be fine, everything’s okay, well, no your in jail, okay. And it's your own fault, that's why your crying isn't? Not cos your sorry for what you've done just because your an idiot for getting yourself in this mess. What you looking at? Oh right, I'm meant to be here for you aren't I. That voice in your head telling you to inhale, exhale, well your gonna be someone's bitch now aren't you so, breathing in and out won't do shit. You could have listened whilst you were picking the lock. Or whilst you were taking the presents, but see you didn't and now you want my company. Well I am here so as long as I am I'm gonna make you hate every inch of your dumb-ass self, you had so much, the world practically at your feet, so smart, handsome, loved, but you got selfish. I get you wanted to be a good first time dad, never seen your kid since he was born, baby mummy moved on with another bloke who was generous and caring enough to take your problems out of your hands and keep them, you could have let him. But it was jealously not guilt that made you want to one up him. Babies first Christmas, dunno what he looks like, can't decide whether his name is Luke or Lewis all you know is that it was your junk that helped make him, so after stalking happy new mum on the internet you see a few pics of her, baby and wannabe daddy and think, even though she's never had money out of my dole dossing pocket I'll nick some presents for little Luke slash Lewis. can't believe you got a black eye though, its classic! I mean out of all the packed houses on Christmas eve, how did you manage to rob the presents of the kid you were getting them for? Your gonna get ruined in here. Seriously now, my question is, how long can you go without showering? See you in a bit. Fucking idiot.